Why I’m Writing Again After 9 Years

I started this blog during my preparation days.

At that time, writing was a way to think clearly—to reflect, to slow down, and to put structure to ambition and uncertainty. It wasn’t about consistency or audience. It was simply about expression.

When I entered IPS training in 2017, life changed rapidly. The pace increased, priorities shifted, and the demands of training took over. I did write for a short while during that phase, but gradually posting stopped.

Not because I didn’t want to write.
But because I believed I could return to it anytime I wanted.

Days became months. Months became years. And without any conscious decision, seven years passed.

This post is not an apology for silence.
It is an acknowledgment of how easily important things get postponed in the middle of responsibility.


From New Entrant to Experience

In 2017, I was new—professionally and personally.

I was learning the basics of policing, understanding the system, and trying to live up to the responsibility that comes with the uniform. Today, I write this with experience behind me. Over the years, I’ve had the opportunity to do meaningful work—some of which has been acknowledged at the state level and by seniors I deeply respect.

More importantly, I’ve learned what policing actually is beyond files, FIRs, and operations:

  • Leadership under pressure
  • Decision-making with imperfect information
  • Accountability when no one is watching
  • And restraint when power is easily available

These lessons are not taught in classrooms. They are lived.


Why Write Again?

Because reflection matters.

Because experiences, if not recorded, fade or remain half-understood.

Because policing, discipline, fitness, mental strength, and sport are deeply connected—and rarely discussed together with honesty.

And because service teaches lessons that deserve to be shared, not showcased.

This blog will be a place where I write about:

  • Policing & leadership — realities, not theories
  • Discipline & fitness — as tools, not aesthetics
  • Mental strength & routines — what sustains long careers
  • Shooting & sports excellence — precision, patience, and practice
  • Life lessons from service — learned slowly, often quietly

I won’t write to impress.
I’ll write to document, reflect, and learn.


Starting Again, Properly This Time

This is not a comeback announcement.
It’s simply a continuation—done consciously.

If you find value here, follow along.
I’ll also be sharing related thoughts and updates on Instagram and X (Twitter).

Nine years later, the silence ends—not because I suddenly found time, but because I finally understood that some things should not be postponed indefinitely.

This is one of them.

Lessons from SVPNPA Film Festival

Two day Film festival was organized at NPA in which thought provoking documentaries were shown. Two particular themes emerged as lesson to me which would be beneficial to others too. First, the importance of understanding the truth of other side. The “Silent Poet” was based on the struggle of Irom Sharmila against AFSPA and “The Hunt” about anti naxal operations in Chattisgarh, Jharkhand and Odisha  in which innocents tribals were killed by security forces during operation.  These two films shown a side of which I in particular and security personnel in general may not agree in entirety. Some may prefer to say that misinformation is being is spread.  But as leaders of force we should not fall into the  trap of dismissing the truth of other side  without any consideration. As being said there are three truths. My truth, your truth and absolute truth which is hidden from everyone. We may not uncover the absolute truth but can make sincere effort to understand the truth of other party. Then only we can move forward. In negotiation there is an important concept of differentiation between “position” and “ interests”.  Demand for repeal of AFSPA is  a position but the interest is what you want to do after the repeal  of AFSPA. We may not be able to concede to position but certainly we can work for fulfillments of the underlying interests.  This can be only be achieved when we open our mind to the truth of other party and not reject it out rightly.  Doesn’t matter how uncomfortable, despicable is that truth. We must understand that the current problems of naxalism and insurgency in North East has arised from historical socio-economic, cultural, excesses and failure of state at some level. There is some genuineness in there stand. That is why it is of utmost importance to understand the truth of other party. “The Hunt” movie in particular raised the point of differentiating between the naxals fighting against the state and the tribals fighting  for preservation of their rights. Both problems cannot be clubbed as same and brand tribals as naxals. This will only strengthen naxals.

Second, take away from the film festival was the power of individual action. A Quiet Revolution, Nero’s Guests and Superman of Malegoan emphasized this point. Magsaysay awardee Rajendra Singh through his water conservation efforts changed the lives of many villages. P Sainath through his journalism forced the entire nation to take note of agrarian crisis in the country which was largely ignored by the mainstream media and government. Supermen of Malegoan shows what a bunch of spirited individuals can achieve. If normal people without any government support can achieve so much and can cause so much influence and change then we as the agents of government have more responsibility. It also made me think is my role is limited by my position i.e. IPS. Should I be limited to maintaining law and order only. While preparing for Civil Services the first choice of most aspirants is IAS. Reason for this is the width of work it provides. Influencing various sectors such as employment, health, education, women empowerment etc. But these documentaries made me think do you really need an official position to bring these changes. Individuals in these documentaries have brought much bigger change single handedly.  I can be much more than what the description of IPS defines and so you.

 

Films Screened

  1. The Silent Poet by Borun Thokchom
  2. The Hunt by Biju Toppo
  3. The Love Commandos by Miriam Lyons
  4. A Quiet Revolution by Cory Taylor
  5. Not My Life by Robert Bilheimer
  6. Nero’s Guests by Deepa Bhatia
  7. Supermen of Malegoan